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Thinking about our younger years.

Kalau kecik-kecik dulu kumpul duit raya banyak-banyak nak beli rumah Barbie Doll yang besar tu. Yang ada toilet, ada dapur, ada katil. Kadang-kadang disertakan dengan kucing atau puppies. Tapi selalunya I'd choose puppies sebab dalam kehidupan sebenar, tak boleh bela puppies. So yeah, I pilih puppies walaupun saya seorang cat lover. Sangat lah suka kucing ok, sampai nampak kucing kurap tepi jalan pun nak peluk lepastu kena marah dengan kawan-kawan WEY WAWA, KENAPA PENGOTOR SANGAT NI? lepastu I terus pura-pura tak kesah pasal kucing tu. Padahal nak je I bawak balik, bagi makan sampai gemuk macam tuan dia lepastu hantar grooming. Eh, kenapa suka melencong ni?

Back to square one, keinginin kita berubah daripada rumah Barbie Doll (ni metaphor eh. Boys may wanted Hot Wheels track macam abang-abang saya. Tapi eh entah-entah ada juga yang simpan perasaan nak rumah Barbie jugak ke) Moving on.. Like me, when I grew a little bit older after that, I demanded for Barbie cars. Eceh ceh dah budget bergaya nak kereta pulak dia. Bila perasaan terhadap kaum Adam sudah berputik, I asked for Ken and then Kelly the little Barbies (konon-konon lepas kahwin mesti lah nak ada zuriat kan?) or apa abang-abang panggil, Barbie midget. Jahatnya mereka. Padahal jealous, nak main Barbie jugak tu. Then, after years of playing imaginary life with my beloved Barbies, Kens and Kellys I started to look at my sisters, dressed up with pretty clothes and lots of handbags. So mak jadi mangsa kena layan I belikan pakaian macam orang dewasa tapi kat kid's section. Handbag sekali, sebab nak collect duit raya ni. Hehe. Bila dah besar lagi sikit, sebab saya ramai kakak, 5 orang to be exact, I started off reading Cleo way earlier than my peers. Jadi, perasaan nak melawa tu dah lama tersemat di hati tapi Mak n Ayah asked me to act my age. Tapi duit raya dah simpan memang nak beli baju-baju cantik.

After that long period of nak melawa je kerjanya sampai sanggup kumpul duit raya. I don't want any of these anymore. I want beyond these materials. I want something more. Duit raya sekarang pun kalau dapat, dah tak nampak habis dekat mana. Maybe habis masa melepak dengan kawan-kawan tengok wayang, shisha, makan, karaoke and more. Kalau dulu, mesti nak kena beli rumah Barbie complete set! Tak pun set masak-masak yang ada dapur sekali tu. Polly Pokets ke, siapa ingat lagi Polly Pockets? Angkat tangan! hehe. Tiba-tiba excited. Ok so yeah. As people grow older, things they want in life change too. The things that everbody wants may not be the same, but sure it changes over time. Innit? No? Nevermind.

Kalau dulu, nak cheer myself up, senang je. Beli permainan baru. Lepastu main-main masak-masak dengan kakak. Ataupun, main kedai-kedai. Lepastu, dapat jadi cashier terus happy sampai esok! But now, how I wish is that easy to cheer myself up again. Barbie doll house and fancy cars won't put a smile on my face anymore, no, not even Polly Pockets or fancy masak-masak toys. Kan best, kalau benda-benda I used to long for when I was a kid can make me lompat-lompat happily again. How I wish.

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